Thursday, April 21, 2011
I'm so tired of quarreling everyday with you.
All i'm asking is more care and concern from you. Is it very hard? I'm what i am today cause of you. What you did to me, i do to you.
You're not the same anymore.
I'm putting in effort into this relationship. Whatever i'm not happy i said it out, cause i want us to improve, but it's not what you think. You think all i do is kpkpkp and after whatever i mention to you, you all kp what i said to me back.
Seriously, all i wanted was to we skype longer, instead of barely an hour. Is this too much? I want you reply me faster instead of a few hours later then reply?
I used to keep checking my phone, keep talking to you so you will reply me back. But i'm so tired doing all these now so i took longer time to reply since you cant be bother too. I stop checking my phone as much as last time. And when i said you wont reply me fast, you said i too dont reply fast and take hours to reply. Who's the one who causes all these?
So when i'm upset about the way you treat me. I thought i said it to you, you will change. But no, you reply you also what and yada yada. Shoot me back.
And a few days ago we talked about breaking up, you said i want you to be the bad guy. But no, if i already knew i wanted to break up with you, i would said it out. The problem is i dont know, that's why i'm seeking your help if you are thinking the same. You said you are confuse too. I asked confused about what. You said dont know. How is this helping me? I'm confuse because this relationship is tiring and you dont seem to bother or care about me. I love you, i dont know if you are my future. You're totally like a woodblock. I've seen my guy friends treat their girl pretty good. But what i get from you? Nothing. I know my relationship cant be compared to others. But i really want you to treat me like i'm the only one for you. No, i cant feel it.
Sometimes i wonder if it's better for me to leave you can grow up a little and become a gentleman. I love you, but it's torturing me. And it's because it's a very long relationship so it's very hard for me to let go, or say break and break.
You know you're not a good boyfriend. Have you ever thought of improving yourself? No. You think i will always stand by your side. No, i have a limit.
I'm almost up to the max for my limit of tolerance. One day, i'm gonna break free and fly away, away from you.
